It’s
been raining for two days steady. The lake is that curious blend of blue, grey,
and green that Sarah Wheaton missed when she moved from Maine to join Jacob,
Anna, and Caleb in the Great Plains. A mist hovers over the lake and the winds
throw tiny droplets of rain at the windows. Yesterday gave us the first
thunderstorm of the spring, but today there is enough chill for one last fire
in the fireplace. It’s the perfect weather for sitting inside, drinking tea,
reading, writing, and reflecting.
“All
the paths of the Lord are lovingkindness”
– Psalm 25:10
I’m not
sure when the Lord first brought this verse to my attention, but it has been on
my heart a lot during the past month. This last year was very different than I
would have ever imagined. Different, but not in a bad way.
As I’ve noted before, it seems like we set out on the straight and narrow
path with a picture of what the Christian life will be like. We imagine what
the good will be, how the Lord will bless us, or even what suffering we might
have to go through. Somehow, much to our surprise (and sometimes chagrin) it is
very different than what we had expected.
I find
that it’s the same way with many of the verses I read. Almost subconsciously, I
find myself expecting how the Lord will teach me the truth of what I just read.
Maybe it will be through this, or maybe that will happen. More often than not, His lessons are usually harder and I learn the lesson in a much more significant way.
The
further I go, the more I realize that His ways are not our ways (Isaiah 55:8-9),
but they are so much better than anything I could have chosen for myself.
My job
as an EMT is not what I would have chosen. In fact, it was one of those things
I told the Lord I would NEVER do. Through working on the ambulance, He has
brought me to my knees and shown me anew how sufficient His grace and daily
measure of strength really is. He has stretched me in ways I would have never
thought possible, demonstrating His utter faithfulness in every last detail.
The
speaker at a college-age Bible study I attended recently pointed out that,
logically, we have no reason to ever doubt God again. The testimonies of His faithfulness
in the lives of those recorded in Scripture are more than sufficient proof – not
to mention the answered prayers, deliverance, and guidance in our own lives.
I
should never doubt God again. Yet, in my human finiteness, I do, again and
again. And, because of His grace, He proves Himself to me, over and over.
All the
paths of the Lord are good. I honestly would have doubted that, even two months
ago. I was wrestling with God over my future and trying to discover what His
plan might be. Was it more school? Was it moving away? Was it both? Was it
neither? Was it something entirely different? Was I missing it?
Those
questions swirled in my head every day, all day as I prayed for grace and
strength for each day and the homework, classes, people, and work that awaited
me.
Looking
back, I see He was testing my faith. His path had not disappeared, as I may
have wondered, but rather it was revealed very slowly, a single day at a time. He
was taking me to a new level of waiting on Him and sifting my heart to show me
which desires were His and which were my fleshly ones. He was asking me to trust
His promises of guidance, even though it seemed like He wasn’t guiding.
My
questions aren’t all answered. I don’t know why the Lord brought me through
some of the things He did in this past year. I’m not sure what lies ahead, but
I do know what He’s called me to do right now: take one step at a time in
humble obedience and faith.
All the
paths of the Lord are good. The KJV says they are “mercy and truth.” His ways
are His best for us.
The entire verse: “All the paths of the Lord are mercy and truth unto such as keep His covenant and His testimonies” (Psalm
25:10). From us, He wants nothing more than our obedience – our demonstration
of our love for Him.
David
begins this Psalm with a humble surrender: “Unto Thee, O Lord, do I lift up my
soul” (Psalm 25:1). It begins with
surrendering our all to Him and an earnest seeking for His ways. “Show me Thy
ways, O Lord; teach me Thy paths. Lead me in Thy truth, and teach me” (Psalm
25:4-5).
David
realized that God’s way was best. He wanted to be taught the Lord’s ways, to be
led in the Lord’s paths. He was willing to give up his own plans, hopes, and
dreams and exchange them for something far better: the Lord Himself.
“You
will show me the path of life;
In
Your presence is fullness of joy;
At
Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.”
– Psalm 16:11
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